From the trailer for season 1 I could not wait to see Issa Rae’s Insecure on HBO . As the trailer played I could see that this show takes place in my home Los Angeles neighborhood. Flashes of subjects that concern me, feelings I had, and situations I was in all in trailer one .
Here was a show I would relate to.
Here was a show I could see myself in and not as a supporting role.
All that was in the trailer , I was excited.
I remain excited as the show continues to give a representation of growth that is relatable to me.
Check out my reviewed on season four and the theme of friendship throughout the season.
My surprise at this event feels repetitive which set in a new level of terror and pain. To see these men openly plotting to kill a man they considered important to Black Lives Matter movement was to see my countrymen plotting to kill Black American leaders . These people that have held life in their hands through training paid for with tax dollars. People whose words are considered more creditable than any average citizen.
I realize I am not as woke as I thought. I have not fully accepted the role of systematic oppression in the police department paired with their conscious effort to harm black people individually and as a whole. I learn about the prison system, our economic dependency on it, and the gain from its legal slavery. I am aware that there are still members of the Black Panthers in jail just for their ideals. I am aware the Ku Klux Klan continues to thrive in America with no government check for this domestic terrorist group whose purpose is to eliminate minority groups of Americans.
Why am I surprised that these ex California cops came together to plot and dream about our death?
I know that I have more to learn but arrogantly I thought myself prepared for this kind of information. I recently watched I Am Not Your Negro and the documentary rang in my head along with other warnings from #BLACK TECH TWITTER about new laws surrounding how meeting information is stored and shared and how technology is being used to target black leaders. I thought how female leaders of the movement are not so publicized but known to those that would do harm. Those silent but strong forces may be targeted and lack publicity except in the local area they are fighting. This comes on the hills of three N.C officers being fired after discussing killing all black people while using the N- word they described in detail how they wanted to kill a black woman arrested by one of the officers the day before. Mean while they want us to believe Sandra Bland was not murdered.
If these men will post this on the internet can you imagine the conversation in person? Or the things only them and the victims know? Every prior arrest should be reviewed in these cases.
I realized I was still dreaming and imaging my west coast, dark blue, home of the hippie state was better. Even after the Watts Riots, Rodney King, LAPD, and personal experience. Long Beach Police Department provided me a reality check. I should not be California Dreaming.